Why do I create?

Last night, I was at the Ripon Farmers Market. It was my last one of the season. This year, I really ramped down my art appearances. I think I went so hard after Covid, that I burned myself out. It was a lot of work. Another reason I love the Ripon Market, because the focus for me is just to paint.

I found myself talking to so many people later into the evening. They were wanting to know my story. Did I take commissions? Was on Etsy?

They talked so kindly about my style. They were so sweet. Validation that I am doing what I should be doing. Today was my day off of the day job. I enjoyed a goodbye brunch with friends. I had a social media meeting with the thirft store that supports Lodi House, a local organization I am currently on the board for. Went to the gym, thinking about the words that filled my heart just hours before. I went to visit a couple of former co-workers when on of them spoke to me about a possible opportunity in the future. I then came home, plugged in my computer and just started creating an email, updating my website and making a plan.

Being an artist can be lonely. It is being vulnerable in front of complete strangers. Explaining that watercolors for me began as a way to connect to my heritage. My mother is Mexican. My dad is white. I am mixed. I never fully felt like I was one or the other. I remember being called “Mutt” in high school. We didn’t really ever see my mom’s side of the family even though the lived only minutes down the road.

The painting Latina women who did great things. Frida. Dolores Huerta. Joan Baez. Dolores del Rio. It was a deep dive, finding so many stories, giving inspiration. Since starting this painting study, I have created my own style. Through play, building on that style. If only I had more time!

Coming from the market, heart full, I have decided to make art work. I am starting an Etsy shop. I am taking commissions for personally inspired paintings. I am going to get back to workshops. I love being with people and sharing art. It is where I belong.

So stay tuned and thank you for joining me on theis journey.

Much Love,

Jen